Tuesday 30 October 2012

Femara/Letrozole does crazy things to my body.

I went in for my CD 8 ultrasound this morning, and I already have a mature follicle at 18. Why do medications like Femara and Clomid do this to me? I'm not complaining by all means, but I don't understand why one follicle grows super fast while on medication. I had other little ones that were all under 1.3. It is possible that the 13 can make it. I have had it happen before where small follicles caught up to the bigger ones. Once I had a follicle grow 4mm in 24 hours, so it is possible that my 13 will become a 17 by tomorrow. I love having normal cycles, well at least I think they're normal. By normal I mean ovulating before CD17 like usual and having a normal length LP. 

I am going to see my fertility specialist next Tuesday. We were originally going to have 2 IUIs, one with Femara and one with Gonal-F. However, I changed my mind. DH asked me if I would rather a phone instead of Gonal-F, and because the phone was less than half the price of Gonal-F and I wanted this phone forever, I got the phone. Instead of doing Gonal-F this cycle we did Femara. I ran out repeats and I'm hoping that my doctor will give me another prescription. If this IUI is unsuccessful we are taking an IUI break. I still want to be monitored, but maybe every other month instead of every month? I'm not sure yet. I definitely want to be on Femara and Progesterone because they make my cycle normal. 

We were going to do IVF in January, but decided to go on a cruise instead. We both need a vacation. We need to get our minds off all of this fertility torture, and I think a cruise will do just the trick. We went on a cruise to Mexico last year and loved it. This time we are going on a 7 night Eastern Caribbean cruise. We leave here on January 19. I'm super excited.  

Monday 29 October 2012

Ovary pain and lots of EWCM on CD8

I know that the thought of ovulating this early is crazy, but it has happened before. The earliest I O'd on Femara was CD9, and I'm on CD 7 right now. I am having lots of ewcm and ovary pain. I know the ovary pain are follicles growing, but I can't explain the EWCM. I will find out what is going on when I get an ultrasound tomorrow.  

Monday 22 October 2012

Dollarama Pregnancy Tests Are Crap. False Positive

What an evil evil evaporation  line I had the other day on a pro care dollarama pregnancy test. I thought  for sure I was pregnant, but nooo of course not. I don't understand why all of my tests had lines. What a cruel and evil trick. To make up for this, I better get pregnant with triplets next cycle.

Saturday 20 October 2012

Maybe I'm not out?

I have done more tests and they have come back with faint lines again. I have no idea what is going on. I have been getting lines on dollar store tests and lines on the loblaws early result brand. You would think if I was pregnant I would have a positive FRER, aren't they supposed to be the most accurate? Why am I always so thirsty, could it be a symptom?

We are going to Isis tomorrow to get a blood test to see if the tests are right, or if they are evil evaps.

These are what my tests looked like from tonight. They were both taken with different urine

Dollarama test



Loblaws test


Friday 19 October 2012

My tests were crap, i'm out!

The lines kept getting lighter and now there are no lines to look at. Well, there may have been something very faint on this mornings dollar store test but it had to be an EVAP because this afternoon I took an FRER and it was a BFMFN. I took one progesterone this morning, but now I'm stopping. I want my period to come and be over with. 

I think I'm done. I can't stand feeling this way anymore. I do nothing but cry and I'm always sad. I get excruciating period cramps that are unbearable. I think it's time to go back on BC and get rid of my stupid periods. If 3 IUIs haven't worked, then nothing will. I'm infertile and there's nothing I can do about it, but be sad. I usually call the fertility clinic on day 1, but I don't think I will this month. What's the point?

Thursday 18 October 2012

Wednesday 17 October 2012

10DPO FMU Possible Positive Pregnancy Test

I have been testing with a dollar store test every day twice a day for the past 2 days. Yesterday morning I had a very visible line, but in the afternoon it wasn't very noticeable but there. This morning I tested again with FMU and I got another faint squinter line, however, it doesn't seem to be as dark as yesterday mornings test. It takes 48-72 hours for HCG levels to double which could explain why my tests aren't getting that darker. I have also read that some tests have more dye than other tests so sometimes the lines can get lighter. I also tested this afternoon around 4pm with a cheap test and there was barely a line again. I could hardly tell if it was an evap or not. Now it does say on the instructions of this test that first morning urine is recommended which would explain why I get positives in the morning and possible negatives at night.