What is wrong with me?

Ever since ovulation I have felt throbbing ovary pain. And no, I'm not symptom spotting. I know I'm not pregnant. This has me very worried. Is it normal, or is there something wrong. I guess I'll find out next month when I have ultrasounds and other tests done.

3dpo today!

I was worried yesterday when my temperature dropped, but today my temperature was 36.95 so I'm pretty sure I ovulated. I doubt that todays temperature is a fluke, but we will see tomorrow. Fertility Friend gave me crosshairs today.


I'm pretty certain that I'm not pregnant. My chart doesn't look like that of a pregnant persons would. I have an obsession with looking at them in the gallery lol and mine does not look like one. I also have a luteal phase defect, so I think it will be impossible for me to get pregnant without any kind of treatment. I really wanted to conceive naturally, but it doesn't look like that will ever be an option. I hope and pray that whatever happens I won't need to have any kind of a procedure like IVF. I'm terrified of all of the procedures that required to have it. My hope is that my doctor will prescribe me Clomid and Progesterone like he said he would for my luteal phase defect and hopefully it works.


I'm curious to see what my luteal phase will be this month. When I first started charting it was 8 days then 10, 10, 11, and 9. I really hope it's longer than 10 days this month, but I would be stupid happy if it were more than 12 days. I also hope that my temperatures warn me this time that my period is coming. My temperatures last month didn't drop as much as they usually did.

Fallback Rise?

Cycle day 20 and I think I'm 2dpo today. Yesterday I had a temperature rise after having positive OPK's for 2 days. I thought I ovulated, but today my temperature dropped. After researching online, it seems as if I may have a fallback rise. My temperature went from 36.35 to 36.61 and then back down to 36.44. Tomorrows temperature should tell me what's going on. I still haven't had a peak on my CBFM, so maybe I haven't ovulated. We will continue to BD.


I can't wait for my period to come so I can book all of the tests that have to be done so I can start some kind of treatment.


Here's what FF has to say about fallback rises:

Fallback Rise

Temperatures may show a "fallback rise" pattern. In a fallback rise pattern the temperature rises significantly and abruptly as you would expect, but then it drops again immediately before it rises again and is sustained throughout the luteal phase. You may not be able to tell whether you are seeing a fallback rise pattern or whether you are seeing one "fluke" high temperature. Your non-temperature signs, or, retrospectively, your luteal phase length, can help you to determine whether or not you have a fallback rise pattern.

Cycle day 18, and still no peak :(

I'm confused and frustrated. I was expecting my CBFM to peak today because I got a positive OPK yesterday and the day before, but it didn't. It's still high. I have no OPK's left. I want to get more, but the weather is horrible and of course I'm getting sick so I don't feel like going anywhere. I guess I'll just wait to see what my temperatures do. They are still low.


Yesterday DH and I went to the clinic to have our blood taken. He had 4 vials of blood taken and I had 30 lol. My arm still hurts like hell.

I got a smiley face!!!

I peed on my last clearblue digital today, and was totally shocked when I got a smiley face. My Clearblue fertility monitor read high this morning, so I wasn't expecting a smiley face.


It's time to have sex like crazy! I'm not sure when we should have lots of sex. I was thinking we would have it like 8 times in one day on my second peak, but now that I got a smiley face, I'm wondering if we should have sex multiple times during the next few days until I see a temperature shift.


I hope this is the last time I ovulate until after our baby is born.

Cycle Day 16

Usually by now my CBFM gives me a peak reading, but I'm still getting a high reading. This is high number 8 for me. The estrogen line is getting lighter so I know that my monitor will peak soon. The question is when. It's hard to tell this month. Usually I can tell when it's about to peak, but not this time. It could peak tomorrow, or it might not. I think if it doesn't peak tomorrow it will definitely peak on cycle day 18. The stick today doesn't look like it usually does the day before it peaks. If it peaks on cycle day 18 then that means I will probably ovulate on cycle day 19 :(. A few months ago when I started taking vitamin b I ovulated on cycle day 19 and I thought for sure it was because of the vitamin. I guess this means it wasn't the vitamin. I'm going to start taking it again today in hopes that it will increase my luteal phase.

CBFM sticks

I'm on cycle day 14 and usually by now my clearblue fertility monitor sticks change. The estrogen line gets lighter, but it's still really dark. This concerns me. I have a feeling I'm going to be ovulating late this month.

My Fertility Specialist Appointment

In September 2011 I went to my family doctor and told her that I suspected something was wrong and I felt that I would never conceive. Even though you have to wait for 12 months before getting a referral, my family doctor said that she would refer me anyways because technically we have been trying for almost 2 years since we have been having unprotected sex for 2 years after coming off of Depo Provera. I was so relieved and happy when she told me that she was going to refer me. I have been seeing her for 2 years now, and my family doctor that I had before her would have never referred me. He never referred me to anyone.


I had my first fertility specialist appointment on October 12, 2011. The appointment went very well, and I liked my doctor.  He ordered a semen analysis for my husband and blood work for both of us to check for infectious diseases like AIDS. I have to call them on cycle day 1 of my next cycle to book some tests. That should be on or around November 4. I have to go in on cycle day 3 for an ultrasound and blood work. I have to book a saline sonohysterogram before cycle day 11. I have to go in for blood work on cycle day 21, (7 days past ovulation). I also have to go in for cycle monitoring where they give you ultrasounds starting on cycle day 10 to check for ovulation. I then have to make an appointment with the doctor after all the tests have been completed.


Before I had my appointment with my specialist I was curious to know if our government would pay for it. I live in Ontario, Canada. It turns out that they cover all of the testing needed, but they will not cover treatment. They will pay for one month of cycle monitoring, but then if I want to I have to pay $250 for a year. They gave me a list of medications with price next to them and they all seemed cheap for medicine except for some that are needed for IVF.

How It All Started

Trying to conceive is driving me nuts, so I thought I would start a blog to write about it.

I was on Depo Provera for 7 years. My periods were absent for 7 years. They finally came back in December 2010, three months after I started taking Provera. I was so happy when my periods finally came back because I was so ready to start trying for a family even though I was getting married 4 months after that in March. 

I originally started using OPK's (ovulation predictor kits). I bought the ones from Clearblue that give you a smiley face when you are ovulating. I read the instructions and started to POAS (pee on a stick), starting on cycle day 9. I would pee on them for 7 days until I finished all of the tests, but I never got a smiley face :(. It was very depressing and I couldn't figure out why I went from month to month without ever getting a positive OPK. 

So, after 6 frustrating months of negative OPK's I went straight to Shoppers Drug Mart and bought a Clearblue Fertility Monitor and a basal body thermometer. I bought the fertility monitor on cycle day 7 and was so upset when I discovered that I had to use it from cycle day 1-5. I started using it in June 2011.

After using my Clearblue fertility monitor and charting my basal body temperature, I finally figured out why my OPK's were never detecting ovulation. It turns out that I ovulate really late in my 27 day cycle, so I was using the tests too early. I also discovered from charting that I have a luteal phase defect. That is when your luteal phase (the time from after you ovulate to the day before your next period), is too short to sustain a pregnancy. My fertility specialist says that even if I were to get pregnant I would probably miscarry. :(

I have been trying to conceive for about 11 months now, so it is time for a checkup.