Monday, 25 November 2013

I Started a New Pregnancy Blog

I will no longer write in this blog, but keep it around for anyone who is interested in reading it.

If you would like to follow my pregnancy blog, you can go here: My Pregnancy Blog

I had my first beta today, and at 6dp5dt it was 41. My tests are getting darker and my symptoms are getting intense. I am enjoying every moment of this.

Sunday, 24 November 2013

My FRER is Showing a LIne!

In the middle of the night I took a first response pregnancy test and it came back positive! It's very light, but obviously there. This all seems so surreal to me. I can't believe that this actually worked and I am finally knocked up. Now I have to stay calm and not worry about complications. It's still very early at 3 weeks 4 days.

For all of you who are in that dark place right now, please don't ever lose hope. Miracles do happen. I will never forget how hard my journey was. Infertility SUCKS and I hope my story has given women who suffer from it some hope. Please don't ever give up!

I am going to start a pregnancy blog, as I don't want to upset anyone. Once I have it set up, I will provide the link.

I would like to thank everyone who has supported me during the way. May your hopes and dreams come true one day!

Saturday, 23 November 2013


The digital says 1-2 weeks OMFG!!!!!!

After 3 years of hell and LOADS of money later, we finally did it!

My Dollar Store Test is Positive!

I am so confused. As you can see this dollar store test is very positive. I took 4 dollar store tests that all had very dark lines like this one. The only problem is that my first response keeps coming back with faint lines or are negative. I am totally confused and don't get it. I got DH to pee on a dollar store test and his was stark white negative, so I'm pretty sure this isn't an evap. Why on earth hasn't the FRER been dark? Are dollar store tests really more sensitive than FRERs? I'm driving myself crazy with these tests lol. Am I pregnant, or am I just having bad luck with tests?

DH is the best. He is at the drugstore as we speak getting me some digitals. I can't drive because of my vision and he told me to stay home while he goes out to get me tests. I love that man.

What the hell is going on with this damn test?

My Tweaked Test

I tweaked my test and so see a line. When I tweaked my test from yesterday and the day before, I saw nothing. Please let this be it. I only have 4 tests left lol. I am going to use one later tonight and then again tomorrow. That will leave me with 2 tests that I will use on Monday. Image and video hosting by TinyPic

I think it worked.

So I woke up this morning and took a FRER and within seconds the faintest pink line showed up. It's so light that it's hard to see, but without a doubt it is there. I'm not getting my hopes up yet since the test could be faulty or I'm just seeing things. I have peed on millions of tests within the past 3 years and have only seen second lines when I was taking HCG. This time I didn't need to have a trigger shot, so why else would there be a line? Maybe I am just getting my hopes up and seeing things, I don't know. In a few hours I will pee again lol.
Here's my test from this morning 4dp5dpt:

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Friday, 22 November 2013

My symptoms so far

I know some of you may think it's too early to feel symptoms and that most symptoms are caused by medications, but the fact that I have been taking estrogen and progesterone for a long time now, and my symptoms just started yesterday, makes me think that they may be real. I know I shouldn't get my hopes up, but I did have 2 perfect embryos placed in my uterus so there's a good chance I could be pregnant. (I hope I didn't jinx myself by saying that). These are my symptoms:

  1. fatigue/exhaustion
  2. irritability
  3. extreme hunger
  4. weird and vivid dreams
  5. mild uterine cramping and pinching
  6. a weird taste in my mouth that tastes like blood
  7. very bad headaches (I NEVER get headaches)
I'm not sure if these symptoms mean anything, but a girl can wish right? After 3 years of trying to have a baby, I notice every little thing that is going on in my body. DH said that I have been acting very strange lately and he has noticed a difference in my personality. 

The only problem is my gut is telling me that I'm not pregnant. Deep down I can feel that this hasn't worked. I hate feeling like this. I wish I wasn't so negative all of the time, and it doesn't help that my FRERs are coming back negative. I know 3dp5dpt is insanely early, so I have to keep that in mind. Someone at the RBA told me that in the past month 3 ladies had negative HPTs but had positive betas. My blood test is scheduled for this Wednesday and I have no idea how to keep sane until then lol. I will continue to pee on pregnancy tests until then and hope that a second line shows. As soon as I wake up tomorrow I will take another FRER. If it was negative today I don't see it being positive tomorrow, but you never know. The idea of getting pregnant just seems impossible. I feel my odds of winning the $50 million lotto max tonight are better than seeing a second line on a test lol.