I haven't ovulated yet

Usually the ultrasound technicians say nothing about anything to me. I always have to wait to see the doctor before I know what's going on. When your follicle(s) reach 16mm they use water as a lubricant. Usually you have to go in for ultrasounds starting on day 10 but because I ovulate stupidly early on medication, they tell me to come in on day 8. This cycle I didn't go in on day 8 because I was too sick to get out of bed. I asked the technician to use water just in case she thought that day 10 was too early for mature follicles and used lubricant. I then told her how they called me yesterday and told me that I was surging and to come back today for an ultrasound to see if I ovulated or not. After she was done the ultrasound she looked at me and said that my follicle from yesterday was still there. I was a bit concerned that TI was going to be too late this month, but I'm still in the running (HAHAHAHAHA....yeah right). Me get pregnant? PALEASE! 

My follicle today was 27mm and my lining was 7.1mm. The doctor of the day told me that sometimes an egg can release from a follicle but then the follicle seals up and stays around making it hard to know if you have actually ovulated or not. He told me that if my progesterone indicated that I ovulated that I would have to come back tomorrow to see if the follicle was gone. They called me around 2pm to tell me that I was still surging and my progesterone was still down. The nurse, who I absolutely adore, told me to have fun and come back on the weekend to check for ovulation. I usually go back a day or 2 after ovulation, but this time it will be 4-5 days after ovulation. I'm curious to know how thick my lining will be that far after ovulation. My hopes is that it gets thicker and isn't too thin. 

I'm Ovulating, ON CYCLE DAY 9!!!!

We got up at 630 this morning to go to the fertility clinic. I'm quite mad at the woman who took my blood this morning. She needed to take blood from my hand, but she didn't use a butterfly needle. She used a regular sized needle so now my hand has been hurting quite a bit all day. It's funny how I love everyone who works at that place except for the people who take blood. They are not very nice.

After I got my blood taken I went to get an ultrasound done. I have 1 follicle at 26mm. My lining was 6.1mm. He told me to give it one more day and then trigger tomorrow, but the nurse called and said I'm ovulating. I have been getting ovary pain and EWCM since CD7. I thought that I was just crazy and imagining things, but I guess I wasn't. The nurse said to come back tomorrow for an ovulation check which is weird because usually they tell me to wait for 2 days and then come back.

This is going to be a very short cycle which may not be a good thing because we are going away in January and I would HATE to be on AF during it. Thankfully I have lots of progesterone which will help me control my periods somewhat.

My weird cycle...

Well, at first my period seemed to be doing it's normal thing. I had heavy bleeding, big clots, and of course excruciating pain. But, then it started to get weird. After only 2 days AF just stopped. This was my shortest AF ever. I also get horrible hip and leg pain after my period ends which stays for 2 days, but this month I didn't have that. So I had AF for 2 days, and on CD4 up until now I have been having small amounts of EWCM and lots of ovary pain. I would have thought that it was my cyst getting bigger or something, but the doctor said my cyst was in my left ovary and the ovary pain I have been having for the past 2 days has been in my right ovary, so these ovary twinges aren't caused by that cyst, is it possible that I got another one? I'm not sure if cysts even cause pain. I only experience this type of pain when I'm close to ovulating, when I have big follicles. And what is up with the EWCM? Could it be the cyst producing estrogen, or could I be ovulating super early this month? I have a weird feeling that when I go in for my next ultrasound they are going to be telling me that I already ovulated. I have read that ovulating this early could be a sign of bad eggs. Apparently it's not good to have one follicle that matures super quick. I really should stop reading. The short period and the feeling that I'm going to ovulate on cycle day 7, is making this cycle a bit weird. 

It's only CD3 and I'm already out.

I went for my cycle day 3 monitoring appointment this morning. Of course I have a cyst in my left ovary and if my E2 is too high this cycle will be cancelled. I'm a bit confused because before when I had cysts they never told me that the cycle would be cancelled. They told me to come back like usual, but this time the doctor told me to cancel everything. This sucks. I hate not knowing what's going on with my body. I feel like the fertility clinic has stopped caring because I have been going there for so long. My own doctor told me to take a break, and now this? If there is nothing that can be done for me, then what's the point of getting brutal AFs every month? I might as well go back on Depo. There is no point in getting a period if I can't get pregnant. 

Our Fertility Specialist Appointment.

On Tuesday we went to see our doctor. He's old, so sometimes he's cranky and sometimes he is supper happy. Well, we happened to get him on one of his cranky days lol. I have seen him crankier so it wasn't so bad. 

We asked him if there are any more tests that should be done to rule anything out and he said no :(. He sad we have done every test that there is. We asked him if DH should see a urologist because of his low numbers, but he said that it wasn't necessary. He says that we likely have a fertilization problem. My husbands sperm cannot penetrate my eggs. Apparently, the edges of my eggs could be too thick for any sperm to penetrate, that or the sperm can't get to them. As you approach menopause the edges of your eggs become too thick for any sperm to get through. Since early menopause runs in my family and because of my numbers, he believes that this may be what my problem is. The only way to tell for sure if the edges of my eggs are too thick is IVF of course. It was really funny, he said that they used to try to fertilize hamster eggs with your partners sperm to see if it was a sperm or an egg issue, but it didn't work so they don't do that anymore. He told us we need IVF, but we have no coverage whatsoever and IVF is expensive. My husband said that we might be able to afford it in the summer. Hopefully it doesn't get to that point. I don't want to go through the torture. 

Because of my brutally horrid periods, I asked him if I could possibly have endometriosis and he said no. He said that none of my ultrasounds or blood work indicate endometriosis, but the only way to know for sure is to have a laparoscopy. He said I don't need one, but I guess to reassure me he referred me to a specialist who does them. My doctor said he used to do them, but no longer can't because of his age. 

Dr. Ewok told us that we should take another break and come back in the new year. Back in May he told us to take a break, but it did nothing but make me insane so I'm not going through that again. We told him that we don't want to break from going to the clinic. We are taking a break from IUIs since we are going away in January and need to save money. He upped my Femara from 7.5 mg a day to 12.5mg a day, so instead of taking 3 pills a day for 5 days I have to take 5 pills a day for 5 days. I never usually see women online get that high of a dose, so this should be interesting. 

I'm 5dpo and just waiting to pee on a pregnancy test that will come back with one line, and then I can stop my progesterone and start all over again.