First Round of Treatment

On December 1 AF came. I called the fertility clinic and made appointments for cycle monitoring.  First I had to take 50mg of Clomid for five days from cycle day 3-7. The only side effect I noticed was bloating and abdominal discomfort. I could never get comfortable. I'm not sure if the Clomid worked or not. I know that it did give me more follicles and my mature follicle grew faster in a day than it did last month.
CD10 14mm and 4 smaller ones
CD11 15mm and 3 smaller ones
CD12 18mm and 14mm
CD13 19mm and 15mm


On cycle day 13 my doctor told me that my follicle was mature enough for ovulation, so he gave me an HCG trigger shot to speed up ovulation, and WOW did it ever speed things up. Usually I ovulate on or around cycle day 17, but this month I ovulated on the same day I had the HCG injection, cycle day 13. I read online that follicles aren't mature until they reach 20mm which confuses me. Why would my doctor tell me 18mm and why would he force my body to ovulate if my follicle wasn't mature enough at 19mm??? This is one of the many reasons why I need to stop going on TTC forums. There's so much misleading information.


I was also prescribed progesterone suppositories to start taking after ovulation, and oh how fun. They are little white waxy bullets that you have to shove up your miffy 2 times a day. Taking the dose at bedtime isn't bad, but in the morning it's awful. I have to wear a pad every day because I leak out white thick creamy progesterone. It also makes my pee white and bubbly LOL.


I also have some bad news. They aren't working!!! I thought they were supposed to increase my progesterone making my luteal phase longer, but I'm 9dpo and I had a temp dip today like I do every month at 9dpo. I suspect AF will show up tomorrow or the next day. Hell, I might even start spotting tonight. My temperatures were also very low and slow rising in my luteal phase meaning that my progesterone is probably still low. This sucks!!!! I think next month we will increase the progesterone from 400mg to 600mg. A doctor I saw during my monitoring told me that we would be also increasing the clomid from 50mg to 100mg.


I'm pms'ing, so I'm feeling very depressed. If the progesterone didn't work, will anything work? If the second half of my cycle isn't long enough and nothing lengthens it, will this make me completely infertile? I doubt procedures like IVF would even work because the embryo wouldn't be able to implant. I guess that means we would have to move on to a surrogate which I believe are illegal in Canada. You would have to get someone you know verses paying someone, and there is not one person in this whole entire world who would do that for me, not one!!! Maybe I will pay someone secretly and pretend to know them if it comes down to it. This is the only option I could see that would actually work. FML!!!!