My tests were crap, i'm out!

The lines kept getting lighter and now there are no lines to look at. Well, there may have been something very faint on this mornings dollar store test but it had to be an EVAP because this afternoon I took an FRER and it was a BFMFN. I took one progesterone this morning, but now I'm stopping. I want my period to come and be over with. 

I think I'm done. I can't stand feeling this way anymore. I do nothing but cry and I'm always sad. I get excruciating period cramps that are unbearable. I think it's time to go back on BC and get rid of my stupid periods. If 3 IUIs haven't worked, then nothing will. I'm infertile and there's nothing I can do about it, but be sad. I usually call the fertility clinic on day 1, but I don't think I will this month. What's the point?

I think all of my tests were evaps :(

Shouldn't they be getting darker? This is from this morning:

10DPO FMU Possible Positive Pregnancy Test

I have been testing with a dollar store test every day twice a day for the past 2 days. Yesterday morning I had a very visible line, but in the afternoon it wasn't very noticeable but there. This morning I tested again with FMU and I got another faint squinter line, however, it doesn't seem to be as dark as yesterday mornings test. It takes 48-72 hours for HCG levels to double which could explain why my tests aren't getting that darker. I have also read that some tests have more dye than other tests so sometimes the lines can get lighter. I also tested this afternoon around 4pm with a cheap test and there was barely a line again. I could hardly tell if it was an evap or not. Now it does say on the instructions of this test that first morning urine is recommended which would explain why I get positives in the morning and possible negatives at night.

I don't think I am pregnant. I bought an FRER and I couldn't see a line. I only saw a line when I took it out of its case, but I don't think it's real. My FMU dollar store test clearly shows a line. I played with it and you could see the line clear as day. You can also see it when it's not played with. I'm so confused.

Here is a picture of the FRER I took around 11 am. This is driving me nuts.

I saw another line with FMU....

And this time the line is actually darker! I don't know what to think. Getting pregnant just seems like it's too good to be true. It feels like my odds of winning the lottery are better than having a baby. Anyways, I couldn't help myself and tested again with a test from dollarama. My test was taken at 7am. My temperature also went back up. Weird things have been happening this cycle so I'm really wondering, but it couldn't be possible it just couldn't be. There's no way. Me pregnant? HAHHA YEAH RIGHT!

Here's the picture, and I know it's probably not real. I just want it so badly that I'm seeing things.



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I tested again, and I see it again.

Am I going totally insane? Am I imagining things? If I was, then why would my DH see the line too? It's still very early so the line is very faint. I can see it better in person. I'm going to test again tomorrow morning. Here's my newest picture.



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I ovulated at least 2 eggs on Femara/Letrozole.

I went in for my CD14 ultrasound this morning, and I ovulated at least two eggs. I totally didn't expect to ovulate more than one follicle on Femara, and I definitely didn't expect to ovulate more than one egg without getting the HCG trigger. This answered my question about ovulating more than one egg without the HCG trigger. I thought that without it there was no chance of ovulating more than one, but I was wrong. I told the doctor that I didn't think one could ovulate more than one on Femara and she said that it's not common but sometimes on higher dosages you do. I am on a high dose, but I was on a high dose last cycle and I only had one mature follicle. This time I had 3 and ovulated at least 2. I'm supposed to go back for a blood pregnancy test on the 22nd of October, but I doubt I will make it until then. I will be 15dpo and will only go to get a blood test if an FRER comes back positive. I'm going to start progesterone tonight and will be taking 3 a day making it 600mg a day. I'm not looking forward to it because they are gross and disgusting. I hate peeing bubbles lol. I'm not confident that this cycle will work, but weirder things have happened I guess.

Oh, and I almost forgot. My lining today was 10mm. It's growing, yay.